Blushing Storm

Fearless in my own skin, I struck I swept in, caught you off-guard My sounds showered your mind, sent shivers through your spine We rumbled together that night drenched in the moment absorbed by each other I was a lot for you, covering the sky with my presence you encouraged it We calmed down theContinue reading “Blushing Storm”

See and make seen

I didn’t know you for long. A day after your death I backtracked how long we actually had known each other for. I counted two months, an insight which lead to instant disappointment because in this world we put the length of any relationship on a piedestal. I pushed that annoying inkling of disappointment awayContinue reading “See and make seen”

Insights with great impact, drawn from tiny moments

The four of us sat in an Airbnb bed, freshly arrived into an Amsterdam in February shroud, sipping Cava and red wine. A constellation of friends that has not been obvious but rather worked on. Connected through our eagerness to connect, out of curiosity for one another. Sharing memories of current and former boyfriends throughContinue reading “Insights with great impact, drawn from tiny moments”

Peeling layers of thought

I’ve been writing all day. I went to Haymarket, looked around in the beautiful milieu and had a coffee, or two actually, very important. The act of going to a place to write, is special. You designate time to write. I don’t do that very often, but when I do, I cherish every second. IContinue reading “Peeling layers of thought”

Fall. In. Love. Again. and. Again

I fell in love three days ago when we sat in the bed of a friend, surrounded by friends, and we made jokes that no one else gets This morning you walked into the bathroom as a bearded man When you came out you had shed your beard I on the other hand, shed nothingContinue reading “Fall. In. Love. Again. and. Again”

Little Miss Fuck-Up

Yesterday I went out bowling and got drunk instead of studying. Today my wrist is hurting from the bowling balls, guess that’s the price you have to pay when you’re the winner 😉 I try to let go of control, an attempt to not live up to the “Little Miss Perfect” – ideal. I don’tContinue reading “Little Miss Fuck-Up”

Leaking Love

I am leaking love it’s in my footprints Smudging it into the wooden floors when I walk It’s invisible only to you You struggle your way out of bed you put your feet down on it For every step you take now, I’ll be hurting I say a sweet goodmorning You smile in response WhileContinue reading “Leaking Love”

Fields of ancient flowers

There are fields of ancient flowers They wither but never die They rise again to build floors of colored gold Imagine how much they have seen The time that has gone by From cavemen to wikings dinosaurs to bears If only they could whisper in all of our two ears All their learnings throughout theContinue reading “Fields of ancient flowers”

Fire & Joy – Blog tips

If you haven’t visited Nirrimi Firebrace’s blog yet, do it. She has a way with words that…gah. Just go see for yourself. This piece for example: More and more often I look at Bee without that manic consuming love. Often I look at him and he’s just Bee and I’m just me. Stripped of magic,Continue reading “Fire & Joy – Blog tips”

Nature, a Double-Edged Sword

She lures you in, seduces you with brisk air and long-sought-after golden rays of sun. She sprinkles the streets in leaves which hold all spectrums of colors, she hypnotizes you. Making one believe that life is a walk in a magical park where nothing evil can happen. She shows off all her best sides, fooling you intoContinue reading “Nature, a Double-Edged Sword”

People Engineering

A choice or two My voice Many others too Interfering Engineering my thoughts Setting them straight Mend me into a social saint Do this Not that Think this Not that Slowly losing the screws Which held me Made me Filled now with nails Of other people’s traits The concept of I Is now you YourContinue reading “People Engineering”

A Stockholm Chimera

There lies peace in this morning, it is nesting on the streets, huddling together with relief in a solemn embrace. Our beautiful city is a memory now, it exists in a thousands of digital and analogue photo albums, and in the minds of those who wandered these streets. Some of them, or many rather, areContinue reading “A Stockholm Chimera”

Saturday Morning Thoughtlings

His warm body slides down next to mine, despite the early hour, I am too awake for my own good. I steal kisses even though I know he would have prefered me not noticing his arrival, because he doesn’t want to disturb me. It must be around 4-5 in the morning and now that I’mContinue reading “Saturday Morning Thoughtlings”

Cacophony Misfortune

I can’t bear the sounds of the world, how they catapult and throw themselves upon each other combined into a hollow scream containing all horror created by mankind Ghastly moans from a neglected child The solemn sigh from a lonely soul A silent sob, one the citizens of the world has heard too many times,Continue reading “Cacophony Misfortune”

Love, Never happened

We tremble As we stride through unknown territories To the sound of ‘Harmony of Pheromonies’ We reach As we speak quietly For each other’s inner entirety We seek As we, eyes locked, gaze solemnly For some sort of certainty We test As we tease in elation For a higher state of affirmation We find notContinue reading “Love, Never happened”

I Should Have Gone Yesterday

My brother is sitting to my left and my sister to my right. We’re in the car on our way to Östersund and it is the Summer of 2015. Our father is driving and mom is in the passengers seat. It’s like the good old days during summer when we all went on family-trips togetherContinue reading “I Should Have Gone Yesterday”

Lightning & Conductor – Such were his eyes in the morning

Did he ever know how his eyes sparked in the morning? Not at first, not those half-dreaming, limbo-sleeping moments, but then, when I touched him, gave him a smile and twinkling eyes – they sparked As if though a lightning hit them and catalyzed energy into them Maybe I was the lightning  Maybe he was myContinue reading “Lightning & Conductor – Such were his eyes in the morning”

Nothingness, how you keep us alive

We are literally nothing but we pretend we are everything If not, life would seem anything but worth living If only for a second we would taste the true spice of our nothingness, the realization of our blunt faking would hit hard as a volcano – shaking our being till’ we fragmented into all theContinue reading “Nothingness, how you keep us alive”

Is it possible to explain events in life through mathematics and physics?

In the mathematical field of dynamical systems an attractor is a set of numerical values toward which a system tends to evolve, for a wide variety of starting conditions of the system. So I wonder, what are my numerical values normally? Dynamical systems in the physical world tend to arise from dissipative systems: if it were not for some driving force, the motionContinue reading “Is it possible to explain events in life through mathematics and physics?”