Tag Archives: love

The Search for Completion

It’s easy to become restless on an empty sea. I searched for islands, islets and land. I found nothing there. I continued, I hoped for rowdy waves, deep caves even whales. My patience departed as I struck my foot down on a nail. Blood came out and ah, finally, pain. It wasn’t the sensation IContinue reading “The Search for Completion”

Blushing Storm

Fearless in my own skin, I struck I swept in, caught you off-guard My sounds showered your mind, sent shivers through your spine We rumbled together that night drenched in the moment absorbed by each other I was a lot for you, covering the sky with my presence you encouraged it We calmed down theContinue reading “Blushing Storm”

See and make seen

I didn’t know you for long. A day after your death I backtracked how long we actually had known each other for. I counted two months, an insight which lead to instant disappointment because in this world we put the length of any relationship on a piedestal. I pushed that annoying inkling of disappointment awayContinue reading “See and make seen”

Sizzling Connection

Between two souls lie a path it’s riddled with obstacles they hold hands and on the path they play jump run dodge to the ground one looks forward one looks backward so to keep an eye open for all that may intervene they hord experiences along the way picking fruits from each other’s brains They’reContinue reading “Sizzling Connection”

Shenanigan’s in the South of Sweden

Where white beaches live and tiny beach-cottages are situated, I feel at home. My family and I travel to Falsterbo/Skanör in Skåne every year and for the two past years Magnus, my sister’s boyfriend, and Nils have joined too, which adds to it even more. Nils and I have been a couple for more thanContinue reading “Shenanigan’s in the South of Sweden”

Freedom on a bike

I’ve been to Italy, in Padergnone. I biked there. Surrounded by mountains, fluffy trees sprinkled in green, lakes of emerald green, we flew forward. At least it felt like it. A sensation of freedom, one that got me all happy-tears-eyed. I looked at my father and brother biking before me and I, as I oftenContinue reading “Freedom on a bike”

36 Squeeze Meter Party

Last weekend Nils and I threw a moving-in party, which I named, cleverly, (if I may say so myself) “36 Squeeze Meter Party”. We had around 40 people here and the night was a blast. Some friends brought a smoke machine which altered the experience and turned our apt into a club. In the midstContinue reading “36 Squeeze Meter Party”

Fun Friends and Urban Burners

These past couple days have been amazing, despite feeling completely blue Sat-Wednesday. But then on Wednesday a bunch of my friends, from all different kind of circles, met up at Carmen. We said goodbye to one Indian who’s going to Amsterdam and Hi to our long lost friends that have been back in India forContinue reading “Fun Friends and Urban Burners”

Fall. In. Love. Again. and. Again

I fell in love three days ago when we sat in the bed of a friend, surrounded by friends, and we made jokes that no one else gets This morning you walked into the bathroom as a bearded man When you came out you had shed your beard I on the other hand, shed nothingContinue reading “Fall. In. Love. Again. and. Again”

Leaking Love

I am leaking love it’s in my footprints Smudging it into the wooden floors when I walk It’s invisible only to you You struggle your way out of bed you put your feet down on it For every step you take now, I’ll be hurting I say a sweet goodmorning You smile in response WhileContinue reading “Leaking Love”

Years on earth: 23

Today is my birthday. I’ve now been an earthling for 23 years and I must say, it’s very neat to be alive despite all the inexplicable things that are happening in the world. I had a birthday-dinner last Saturday which turned out to be a really fun and sweet evening. I know nothing that’s better than havingContinue reading “Years on earth: 23”

Tom Odelling

Last night I had a pleasant reunion with Tom Odell, this thanks to Nils as I got the concert for my birthday.  The first time I saw Mr. Odell was in New York when Elena and I sneaked into a dinner-concert and got ourselves a table and some wine. I was completely compelled by his stage-presence andContinue reading “Tom Odelling”

Fire & Joy – Blog tips

If you haven’t visited Nirrimi Firebrace’s blog yet, do it. She has a way with words that…gah. Just go see for yourself. This piece for example: More and more often I look at Bee without that manic consuming love. Often I look at him and he’s just Bee and I’m just me. Stripped of magic,Continue reading “Fire & Joy – Blog tips”

Long time no see

Been up in my head lately and haven’t been able to put words to my thoughts, but I’m thinking I’m done with that now. Sick of thinking, better start doing instead. Hence I’m back here in my little digital home. These past weeks I’ve been partying a lot, held our final presentation on our finalContinue reading “Long time no see”

Summer Memories & the complexity of memory

Summers tend to appear blurry, days vaporize into each other and create fuzzy memories. When did I do what? What happened when? Who was I with?  Thank you Steve Jobs for creating the smartphone so I can document whatever I want to in a jiffy and remember. Speaking of this, I wonder if I, dueContinue reading “Summer Memories & the complexity of memory”

Midsummer Madness

Arabo had been planning our midsummer feast for a whole week and when Midsummer’s day came, he, Pako and Sonja rolled into my kitchen with SO MUCH FOOD! The rest of the crew came at 4 and so we started eating + drinking en masse… 😉 Nils was game-leader and we played burnball, catching applesContinue reading “Midsummer Madness”

A magical night at Veronica’s

My friend Veronica hosted a dinner at her parents house at the most lush, serene, beautiful location. I was filled with joy over friends, jumping on a trampoline, the weather and all the other feelings that come with summer. Here are some memories from those 18h.   At random times half of the crew disappearedContinue reading “A magical night at Veronica’s”

Hotel J with J and N

He told me not to book anything in on the 12th of June and let me live in oblivion till’ five days before when he revealed that we were going on a staycation in Nacka. Met him up by Dramaten, with butterflies in my belly and was stoked about going on a mini-adventure. We took the boat outContinue reading “Hotel J with J and N”

The Nesting Sorrow

There is grief circling mind, like a ring of wildfire, it surrounds every thought. Not letting anything in, nor out. I push the memories back because they remind me, and reminciscing leads to tears and crying hurts. I woke up with a blistering headache, piercing through my head as if it was a spear ofContinue reading “The Nesting Sorrow”

Love, Never happened

We tremble As we stride through unknown territories To the sound of ‘Harmony of Pheromonies’ We reach As we speak quietly For each other’s inner entirety We seek As we, eyes locked, gaze solemnly For some sort of certainty We test As we tease in elation For a higher state of affirmation We find notContinue reading “Love, Never happened”

The Youthful Longing for Nothing and More

In Ghana I decided to live my life here in Sweden, more like I did there, which equals spending more money on food, drinks, events, activities, and in return get more experiences and fun-times. These past weeks have been all about sun-bathing (because summer came to Sweden?!?!! WHAT?!) going out, eating out, going to school,Continue reading “The Youthful Longing for Nothing and More”

Sweltering heat, Warmer humans

Last Sunday we got on the plane from Accra to Tamale Airport. I got the strange sensation of that Camilla and I were wildlings and we were about to conquer the north, behind the wall. Because it is a wall,  it seperates  the “rich and the rich poverty” of Accra from extreme poverty in theContinue reading “Sweltering heat, Warmer humans”

Thunder outside, thunder within

It’s twenty-seven degrees in my room, but I am freezing. My body is laying flat in bed and my eyes are forcing me to keep them shut, they are not ready for a new day. I fall into some sort of half-ass sleep where I enter dreamland. I dream of all the experiences I’ve hadContinue reading “Thunder outside, thunder within”

Whiskey & Cards, Wine & Kisses

Out of nowhere a charming human, with eyes as blue as the sea, with tattooed biceps and the giggliest laughter ever heard, entered my life.The past couple of days we’ve taken vacation from our chores and spent time together. I believe that when crushing – give it all the time it needs because it is a rareContinue reading “Whiskey & Cards, Wine & Kisses”

I Should Have Gone Yesterday

My brother is sitting to my left and my sister to my right. We’re in the car on our way to Östersund and it is the Summer of 2015. Our father is driving and mom is in the passengers seat. It’s like the good old days during summer when we all went on family-trips togetherContinue reading “I Should Have Gone Yesterday”

Life Right Now

Went to the doctor yesterday and got some hard-core asthma meds. Felt like a real junkie walking out of there with a band-aid, trembling body and a face as pale as the snow with halfmoons of purple beneath my eyes. Today is the first day in a week that I can breathe kind of properlyContinue reading “Life Right Now”