Tag Archives: life

The Search for Completion

It’s easy to become restless on an empty sea. I searched for islands, islets and land. I found nothing there. I continued, I hoped for rowdy waves, deep caves even whales. My patience departed as I struck my foot down on a nail. Blood came out and ah, finally, pain. It wasn’t the sensation IContinue reading “The Search for Completion”

Intelligent scum

What if people a hundred years from now will look back at us in the” rich” world and ask: Why didn’t you stop this from happening? There are no flowers any longer We have no trees The bees no longer buzz around our elbows and knees The sun is scorching our skin water tastes likeContinue reading “Intelligent scum”

A quiet Sunday

Sharing the sofa with Zampa, music flowing around me and the cold weather is intrusive from the outside. Mamma was here a minute ago and we shared a coffee and caught up. Absolutely love living in walking distance from all of my family. My mental state is a bit fuzzy because Johanna and I hadContinue reading “A quiet Sunday”

Human-waste

A man on the subway Sunken cheeks, skinny bones, White tufts of hair on his head Blue, coming on grey, eyes Carved roads on his forehead – marks from all the times he’s reacted to something Laughinkles next to his eyes and I see I see his stories playing before his eyes a life livedContinue reading “Human-waste”

Tom Odelling

Last night I had a pleasant reunion with Tom Odell, this thanks to Nils as I got the concert for my birthday.  The first time I saw Mr. Odell was in New York when Elena and I sneaked into a dinner-concert and got ourselves a table and some wine. I was completely compelled by his stage-presence andContinue reading “Tom Odelling”

Brace yourselves…

I’m physically exhausted. Yesterday I ran like a maniac, 3 km fast warm-up, then doing 8x400m á 1.30min (fast for me because I’m out of shape, the WR is 47.60 seconds so there’s that comparison for you), then wrapped it up with 2km jogging. Today Sonja and I went boxing and now I’m laying here withContinue reading “Brace yourselves…”

Apocalyptic Delight

We are striving in the light of pain Thriving in apocalyptic delight A life on the edge desperately searching for magic destructive behavior The constant search for a savior For at times, life is bleached by the ruthlessness of futility It’s senseless to believe we’re only here for fertility when everything circles our minds abilityContinue reading “Apocalyptic Delight”

Mama’s Birthday

Two weeks back I had quite the party-week. It started off with a club-night with A and A, and the day after all of the fam + extended fam met up at Strandbryggan for lunch and celebrated mamma’s 54th birthday. The week then continued with a night at V’s (previous post), a rave on FridayContinue reading “Mama’s Birthday”

The Stained Man – a short story

It’s a solemn morning for the man who is busy pouring his coffee down the drain. He is mad, for all he can see is the stain, the stain on his white shirt which, in his mind, represents his life. He mutters to himself as he watches the rain trickle down the window pane; “I’mContinue reading “The Stained Man – a short story”

The Youthful Longing for Nothing and More

In Ghana I decided to live my life here in Sweden, more like I did there, which equals spending more money on food, drinks, events, activities, and in return get more experiences and fun-times. These past weeks have been all about sun-bathing (because summer came to Sweden?!?!! WHAT?!) going out, eating out, going to school,Continue reading “The Youthful Longing for Nothing and More”

In Kokrobite we danced in the moonlight

Yesterday we got back from Kokrobite, a small paradise an hour outside of Accra. We stayed in a honeymoon suite (to say the least) at Kokrobite Garden. With paintings, colorful houses, a beautiful garden and snaky pathways I think it makes for the ultimate setting for a wedding. The moon here in Ghana tends toContinue reading “In Kokrobite we danced in the moonlight”

Treats of Northern Ghana

As we woke up around 6.30 on Monday we brought our sweaty bodies out of the bed, into the sunlight. The warm breeze felt as good as a cold shower after a sauna. We were served a small breakfast consisting of meal-replacer bags. We headed out to say goodbye to Joshua, which was a heartfeltContinue reading “Treats of Northern Ghana”

Sweltering heat, Warmer humans

Last Sunday we got on the plane from Accra to Tamale Airport. I got the strange sensation of that Camilla and I were wildlings and we were about to conquer the north, behind the wall. Because it is a wall,  it seperates  the “rich and the rich poverty” of Accra from extreme poverty in theContinue reading “Sweltering heat, Warmer humans”

Thunder outside, thunder within

It’s twenty-seven degrees in my room, but I am freezing. My body is laying flat in bed and my eyes are forcing me to keep them shut, they are not ready for a new day. I fall into some sort of half-ass sleep where I enter dreamland. I dream of all the experiences I’ve hadContinue reading “Thunder outside, thunder within”

Bargaining With Life

A lot is happening at the same time. We are working hard with The Free Projects , the event is on Saturday and we are smashing out videos, posters, invitations and what not. I love it. It’s what I’ve dreamt of for a long time, working together with close friends with almost complete creative freedom. At the sameContinue reading “Bargaining With Life”

Life Right Now

Went to the doctor yesterday and got some hard-core asthma meds. Felt like a real junkie walking out of there with a band-aid, trembling body and a face as pale as the snow with halfmoons of purple beneath my eyes. Today is the first day in a week that I can breathe kind of properlyContinue reading “Life Right Now”

Human; Deactivated

Someone pressed the OFF-button on me this week. I’ve been malfunctioning deep under my duvet. It started Monday, straight after we had gotten our teams for X-program. I was short of breath, not present and everytime I stood up my world was on the verge of becoming pitch black – something I smoothly avoided and keptContinue reading “Human; Deactivated”

**Busy**Uploading life to social media**

I believe it’s not a matter of time and place But about how we let us chase and be chased By time, By love, By the worries of our child inside, To experience wonder – nowadays we demand thunder It’s not enough with a train ride to the forest It’s the urge to feel enticed, Baffled,Continue reading “**Busy**Uploading life to social media**”

Capable or Incapabale of Creating Without Fearing

I wake up too late, between 9 and 10 every day. Apparently I’m turning off the alarm whilst sleeping. I try not to get anxious and tell myself my body and soul needs it. It’s the first time in five months that I have days when I can do whatever I want and it makesContinue reading “Capable or Incapabale of Creating Without Fearing”

Last hour of a 21 year old

There it goes, this life of mine. Second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour and all of a sudden another year has passed and in that realization is nothing more but the now. This year I’ve been treated with many new humans in my life, experiences – both physical and mental, I’ve lostContinue reading “Last hour of a 21 year old”

Juggle life

Spent the day at Anna’s. This weekend I’ve been taking it abnormally chill. Felt like I ran into a tiny wall last Wednesday due to too many impressions and a brain which runs on top-speed with too little fuel. So I had to wind down. Spent last night at Sonja’s, with play-dough. Haha. We madeContinue reading “Juggle life”

Nothingness, how you keep us alive

We are literally nothing but we pretend we are everything If not, life would seem anything but worth living If only for a second we would taste the true spice of our nothingness, the realization of our blunt faking would hit hard as a volcano – shaking our being till’ we fragmented into all theContinue reading “Nothingness, how you keep us alive”

Sweat Everyday as Matthew McConaughey Say

I’m in New York on a cold winter’s day. I’m in the audience of The Actor’s Studio with James Lipton. The guest of today is Matthew McConaughey. Lipton asks: ”Matthew, how do you stay so fit?” Matthew replies: ”Nah, I don’t have a particular exercise-scheme but I do stick to one thing, and that’s toContinue reading “Sweat Everyday as Matthew McConaughey Say”

Ted Talk: Johann Hari

Everything you think you know about addiction is wrong – Johann Hari This Ted Talk took all my intricate thoughts regarding addiction and pieced them together in one profound solution, as stated by a Youtube commenter: The opposite of addiction is connection.  It all makes perfect sense and I find it incredibly disheartening and ignorant howContinue reading “Ted Talk: Johann Hari”