Fall. In. Love. Again. and. Again

I fell in love three days ago when we sat in the bed of a friend, surrounded by friends, and we made jokes that no one else gets This morning you walked into the bathroom as a bearded man When you came out you had shed your beard I on the other hand, shed nothingContinue reading “Fall. In. Love. Again. and. Again”

Little Miss Fuck-Up

Yesterday I went out bowling and got drunk instead of studying. Today my wrist is hurting from the bowling balls, guess that’s the price you have to pay when you’re the winner ūüėČ I try to let go of control, an attempt to not live up to the “Little Miss Perfect” – ideal. I don’tContinue reading “Little Miss Fuck-Up”

Free-writing my way to freedom

I’m in a room on Gotland in a beautiful summer house. There are five new, for me, people sleeping in the other rooms. They’re my team-mates on this shortfilm-shoot. Yesterday I rode for four hours straight and I felt empowered and free sitting on the horse Irina. My co-actress and I roamed the fields, cantered,Continue reading “Free-writing my way to freedom”

Stockholm Charades

Summer flies to foreign countries the spirits of autumn settle in People, kissed by a healing wind waiting for the harsh winter to begin as the sun enters hibernation Swedes work on their winter accusations but in their minds live warm memories of Summer fragments that will keep them together

A quiet Sunday

Sharing the sofa with Zampa, music flowing around me and the cold weather is intrusive from the outside. Mamma was here a minute ago and we shared a coffee and caught up. Absolutely love living in walking distance from all of my family. My mental state is a bit fuzzy because Johanna and I hadContinue reading “A quiet Sunday”

Human-waste

A man on the subway Sunken cheeks, skinny bones, White tufts of hair on his head Blue, coming on grey, eyes Carved roads on his forehead – marks from all the times he’s reacted to something Laughinkles next to his eyes and I see I see his stories playing before his eyes a life livedContinue reading “Human-waste”

Leaking Love

I am leaking love it’s in my footprints Smudging it into the wooden floors when I walk It’s invisible only to you You struggle your way out of bed you put your feet down on it For every step you take now, I’ll be hurting I say a sweet goodmorning You smile in response WhileContinue reading “Leaking Love”

He moved in

I wake up and feel his arms around me, as I have countless of times. I push¬†his arms harder around me because my drowsy head tells me to embrace the moment – he will go home soon and you won’t see each other till Wednesday. Then it dawns on me, I’ll see him tonight, tomorrowContinue reading “He moved in”

2017 starts today

My 2017 starts today. Been slacking away since 2016 ūüėČ Let me share a joke: Nils woke up with a sore throat today and when he said: “It feels like I have a ton of snot in my¬†throat” I answered “Mmmm, I love that feeling of eating locally produced.” Probably my best joke so farContinue reading “2017 starts today”

Rapid Production

Hi! Last week Chris and I recorded a long sketch, which later turned out to be extremely unfocused. Or, more specifically: I was not in focus. Christmas-holiday’s were coming up around the corner and we needed films to push out during our break. We had to trash the film and come up with a newContinue reading “Rapid Production”

Merry Christmas

It’s christmas morning and Nils just left for work. I’m drinking coffee in bed, listening to my new Dali-Katch loudspeaker which I just got from Nils. He’s taught me to appreciate good sound and now I feel like just sitting here all day, “Dali-Katch¬†and chill”. The sound is so clear.¬† I’ve been so eager toContinue reading “Merry Christmas”

19 drafts in my pocket

I’ve 19 drafts lying around in this blog, 9 of which were created this week. I can’t seem to find my words, nor my language, nor my inspiration or flow. Perhaps I’m encumbered with self-doubt or some other human annoyance. Last night, Chris and I went on christmas-holiday. We celebrated our first month working togetherContinue reading “19 drafts in my pocket”

Fields of ancient flowers

There are fields of ancient flowers They wither but never die They rise again to build floors of colored gold Imagine how much they have seen The time that has gone by From cavemen to wikings dinosaurs to bears If only they could whisper in all of our two ears All their learnings throughout theContinue reading “Fields of ancient flowers”

Halloween 2016

Nils threw a great halloween-party a couple of weeks back. Trump was there (of course), Kim & Kanye, King and Queen of chess (Nils and I that is), Draco Malfoy, on top of that Britney Spears & Justin Timberlake came all the way from the 90’s! Since we were king and queen of chess IContinue reading “Halloween 2016”

Years on earth: 23

Today is my birthday. I’ve now been an earthling for 23 years and I must say, it’s very neat to be alive despite all the¬†inexplicable¬†things that are happening in the world. I had a birthday-dinner last Saturday which turned out to be a really fun and sweet evening. I know nothing that’s better than havingContinue reading “Years on earth: 23”

Relationship Paranoia

Hello there! My partner in crime, Chris, and I, have now released our first project that we made single-handedly together as Yadi Yada Pictures. It turned out to become more of a shortfilm than a sketch, I guess that leaves us at “a longer sketch”. It was a blast filming it, equally fun releasing itContinue reading “Relationship Paranoia”

Tom Odelling

Last night I had a pleasant reunion with Tom Odell, this thanks to Nils as I got the concert for my¬†birthday. ¬†The first time I saw Mr. Odell¬†was in New York when Elena and I sneaked into a dinner-concert and got ourselves a table and some wine. I was completely compelled by his stage-presence andContinue reading “Tom Odelling”

Exciting week ahead

New week. New adventures. So, what’s up?¬† This week is going to be filled with work 9-4/5/6 with Chris – internship starts NOW. He’s here in 30min btw and I am still struggling with getting sleepdust out of my eyes. It is so difficult to get up nowadays when the world¬†is pitch black. Tonight, myContinue reading “Exciting week ahead”

Running our own bizniz

I’m going to be that Swede now, nagging about the weather. BUT JEEEZ?! I don’t think the sun rose today, it’s been raining continuously since 8AM, it’s dark outside and it’s 3.35pm, remind me again of why I live here? My week has been absurdly calm. My partner in crime is ill so we haven’tContinue reading “Running our own bizniz”

Fire & Joy – Blog tips

If you haven’t visited Nirrimi Firebrace’s blog yet, do it. She has a way with words that…gah. Just go see for yourself. This piece for example: More and more often I look at Bee without that manic consuming love. Often I look at him and he‚Äôs just Bee and I‚Äôm just me. Stripped of magic,Continue reading “Fire & Joy – Blog tips”

Film Adventure

My coffee is getting cold on my bedside-table. I’m underneath two covers¬†in a hotel-room in Norrk√∂ping. I’ve just had breakfast with the two actors I’m filming with during this shortfilm. It’s my friend’s shortfilm and I’m proud of her, her first film and I am a part of it! As we walked home from setContinue reading “Film Adventure”

Nature, a Double-Edged Sword

She lures you in, seduces you with brisk air and long-sought-after golden rays¬†of sun. She sprinkles the streets in leaves which hold all spectrums of colors, she hypnotizes you. Making one believe¬†that life is a walk in a magical park where nothing evil can happen. She shows off all her best sides, fooling you intoContinue reading “Nature, a Double-Edged Sword”

Brace yourselves…

I’m physically exhausted. Yesterday I ran like a maniac, 3 km fast warm-up, then doing 8x400m √° 1.30min (fast for me because I’m out of shape, the WR is 47.60 seconds so there’s that¬†comparison for you), then wrapped it up with 2km jogging. Today Sonja and I went boxing and now I’m laying here withContinue reading “Brace yourselves…”

Apocalyptic Delight

We are striving in the light of pain Thriving in apocalyptic delight A life on the edge desperately searching for magic destructive behavior The constant search for a savior For at times, life is bleached by the ruthlessness of futility It’s senseless to believe we’re only here for fertility when everything circles our minds abilityContinue reading “Apocalyptic Delight”

Long time no see

Been up in my head lately and haven’t been able to put words to my thoughts, but I’m thinking I’m done with that now. Sick of thinking, better start doing instead. Hence I’m back here in my little digital home. These past weeks I’ve been partying a lot, held our final presentation on our finalContinue reading “Long time no see”

Changing times

I’ve been through a whirlwind of thoughts these past couple of weeks. In particular it’s been about one decision. Negotiating with myself what the right move is, measuring pros and cons, seeking advice from everywhere. I’ve been searching for hints, something which could confirm or deter my choice. Then I took a decision. We’re goingContinue reading “Changing times”

People Engineering

A choice or two My voice Many others too Interfering Engineering my thoughts Setting them straight Mend me into a social saint Do this Not that Think this Not that Slowly losing the screws Which held me Made me Filled now with nails Of other people‚Äôs traits The concept of I Is now you YourContinue reading “People Engineering”