Saturday Morning Thoughtlings

His warm body slides down next to mine, despite the early hour, I am too awake for my own good. I steal kisses even though I know he would have prefered me not noticing his arrival, because he doesn’t want to disturb me. It must be around 4-5 in the morning and now that I’mContinue reading “Saturday Morning Thoughtlings”

Cacophony Misfortune

I can’t bear the sounds of the world, how they catapult and throw themselves upon each other combined into a hollow scream containing all horror created by mankind Ghastly moans from a neglected child The solemn sigh from a lonely soul A silent sob, one the citizens of the world has heard too many times,Continue reading “Cacophony Misfortune”

The Power of One Person

And all of a sudden you start to feel, certain things It erupted from what one person said Those words, they make your being chime A tingle, you wake up from sleep you’ve been stirred alive Those words, cling to you like nothing before You know, they are your truth A person, evoked a sparkContinue reading “The Power of One Person”

The Stained Man – a short story

It’s a solemn morning for the man who is busy pouring his coffee down the drain. He is mad, for all he can see is the stain, the stain on his white shirt which, in his mind, represents his life. He mutters to himself as he watches the rain trickle down the window pane; “I’mContinue reading “The Stained Man – a short story”

Play Seriously

I had my assessment today and it bugged me, it made me feel inadequate and wrong, lost and unintelligible. Haunted by the feeling of always doing too little, never enough. I structure a routine to fit everything in, ending up with a breakdown and smeary tears. When is “it’s enough” and “how active can oneContinue reading “Play Seriously”

The Nesting Sorrow

There is grief circling mind, like a ring of wildfire, it surrounds every thought. Not letting anything in, nor out. I push the memories back because they remind me, and reminciscing leads to tears and crying hurts. I woke up with a blistering headache, piercing through my head as if it was a spear ofContinue reading “The Nesting Sorrow”

Love, Never happened

We tremble As we stride through unknown territories To the sound of ‘Harmony of Pheromonies’ We reach As we speak quietly For each other’s inner entirety We seek As we, eyes locked, gaze solemnly For some sort of certainty We test As we tease in elation For a higher state of affirmation We find notContinue reading “Love, Never happened”

La Famiglia en Italia

Just arrived home from Arabba, Italy. One week with splendid weather, great skiing, shit tonnes of food, a lot of red wine, family and extended family. I’ve shared a room with my siblings and it’s been a treat to reconnect a little. Because even though we’ve grown up together and know each other on a deepContinue reading “La Famiglia en Italia”

Butterflies

I’m sitting in my room with my bags packed. My family is chatting downstairs with the clatter of porcelain as background music. Tonight is the event of The Free Projects and it feels like as if we (in the team) are inviting people into our personal bubble. A bubble that hopefully will explode into happiness and excitement tonight.Continue reading “Butterflies”

Bargaining With Life

A lot is happening at the same time. We are working hard with The Free Projects , the event is on Saturday and we are smashing out videos, posters, invitations and what not. I love it. It’s what I’ve dreamt of for a long time, working together with close friends with almost complete creative freedom. At the sameContinue reading “Bargaining With Life”

I Should Have Gone Yesterday

My brother is sitting to my left and my sister to my right. We’re in the car on our way to Östersund and it is the Summer of 2015. Our father is driving and mom is in the passengers seat. It’s like the good old days during summer when we all went on family-trips togetherContinue reading “I Should Have Gone Yesterday”

When Heaven Split in Ice & Fire

Have I told you about that morning the 29th of January when heaven separated the world in ice and fire? How the sun sprinkled gold over everyone who witnessed it, and made a promise to the dead grass that spring will come and you will be in full bloom again, shimmering of green. Just wait. Continue reading “When Heaven Split in Ice & Fire”

Teenage Misconception

Her mama questions her “What you need that for?” “Your skin is perfect” Another teenage-exploration mama thinks to herself. Daughter, seemingly ashamed, takes the facial scrub into the bathroom Dabs her face wet Looks at her dry skin Applies the scrub And scrubs Scrubs And she scrubs Skin falls down into the sink Scrubs, harderContinue reading “Teenage Misconception”

Scorch & Burn

I am scorching hot I leave burn marks on his skin Or at least he says so I can’t see any He touches me everywhere, literally everywhere It’s a tingling sensation This It fills me with self-esteem I realize he does not want to be close At times He wants to remain close Forever I’veContinue reading “Scorch & Burn”

**Busy**Uploading life to social media**

I believe it’s not a matter of time and place But about how we let us chase and be chased By time, By love, By the worries of our child inside, To experience wonder – nowadays we demand thunder It’s not enough with a train ride to the forest It’s the urge to feel enticed, Baffled,Continue reading “**Busy**Uploading life to social media**”

Capable or Incapabale of Creating Without Fearing

I wake up too late, between 9 and 10 every day. Apparently I’m turning off the alarm whilst sleeping. I try not to get anxious and tell myself my body and soul needs it. It’s the first time in five months that I have days when I can do whatever I want and it makesContinue reading “Capable or Incapabale of Creating Without Fearing”

Shimmery shining doom

“Maybe” I told him “- it’s midwinter now, hopefully the frosty glitter on the freezing trees will last until January.” “Have you seen the way it sparkles at night? How the glitter plays in the light from the lampposts?” He did not answer. “Hello?” “Yes, yes I have seen it, a long time ago.” “ButContinue reading “Shimmery shining doom”

Last hour of a 21 year old

There it goes, this life of mine. Second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour and all of a sudden another year has passed and in that realization is nothing more but the now. This year I’ve been treated with many new humans in my life, experiences – both physical and mental, I’ve lostContinue reading “Last hour of a 21 year old”

What a Day and Night

Yes! What a day and night! Our exhibition exceeded my expectations by thousands-folds. People were queuing for ages and there were probably around 800-1000 beings who came and saw our projects. My team and I stood and gazed out over our part of the project while people were interacting with it, we were filled withContinue reading “What a Day and Night”

Foodshoppers – rethink!

Let’s say you are in love with someone. That love object of yours is intellectually appealing, funny, and makes you smile big time. BUT, your love’s skin is covered with moles. Not big ones or too many, but still, moles. And why would that be a problem? You may think now, well, exactly, thank youContinue reading “Foodshoppers – rethink!”

Our Independent Earth

There lies truth in the morning All dark except from shimmers of golden rays A humbleness to the world As if it awoke for the first time Unaware of the circle of past, present, future Of its’ inhabitants Of its’ issues You are ill world I’m not the first to tell you this The citizens ofContinue reading “Our Independent Earth”

Lightning & Conductor – Such were his eyes in the morning

Did he ever know how his eyes sparked in the morning? Not at first, not those half-dreaming, limbo-sleeping moments, but then, when I touched him, gave him a smile and twinkling eyes – they sparked As if though a lightning hit them and catalyzed energy into them Maybe I was the lightning  Maybe he was myContinue reading “Lightning & Conductor – Such were his eyes in the morning”

Nothingness, how you keep us alive

We are literally nothing but we pretend we are everything If not, life would seem anything but worth living If only for a second we would taste the true spice of our nothingness, the realization of our blunt faking would hit hard as a volcano – shaking our being till’ we fragmented into all theContinue reading “Nothingness, how you keep us alive”

I Have The Power Over Your Life

It’s a late Thursday-night. My mother and I are talking in the kitchen. Earlier this day our Dachshund, Snaps, with 15 years in his back, took a dump whilst he was eating. He also pees inside the house during night. When we go out on “walks” (50-100m long) he sniffs at one spot for such aContinue reading “I Have The Power Over Your Life”

Presentation Technique

To progress as a human it is fundamental to step out of ones comfort zones. It could be as simple as daring to walk up to a cute person in a bar or to present in front of X numbers of humans. Thanks to school I got to meet and learn from Ilene Sawka. AContinue reading “Presentation Technique”

Group Dynamics

There are 50 of us in my class. We have 50 different values, backgrounds, experiences, ways to view the world. We have left the honey-moon faze in our group and people have retreated into being individuals within the group. This means a lot of frustration, irritation, and patronizing bubble up to the surface. Attending thisContinue reading “Group Dynamics”

Susan Miller Horoscope

The last couple of months I’ve read my horoscope via Susan Miller. I don’t know why I do it, maybe because it’s intriguing to get a hunch of what the future holds? According to the stars and planets, September holds incredible career-opportunities for a Sagittarius like me. Thus far, I have to admit, the horoscopeContinue reading “Susan Miller Horoscope”

The Aged Me

I sense her vaguely. She’s is strong, vulnerable, sensible and wise. She knows things. She laughs a lot, cries a lot for she finds life overwhelming and beautiful at the same time. Had I met her today she would have hugged me, told me not to think too much. She is loving. She has aContinue reading “The Aged Me”